NEW PODCAST, SAME CRAZY DREAMS
I released a new podcast series on my YouTube and yes, Spotify! Oh gosh, it’s been a dream. But turning a dream into reality is the craziest thing ever. Do I care if it’s crazy? Not really. I’ve been chasing so many crazy things lately anyway.
I think we can all agree… a lot has been going on in my life these days. I’ve learned to weigh what I really want to do, and honestly, I love doing a lot of things. I guess that’s something I’ve fully embraced about myself. So now, I just do what I can think of. As a mom and a wife, it can get pretty overwhelming, especially since I do most of it myself. But I know I’m not alone. With God’s grace, and the support of my family (moral support, mostly), I’ve been able to do so much. It doesn’t feel like work, and I guess I shouldn’t feel too guilty about doing something new, especially since my line of work is so unconventional. I started doing things I loved when I became a streamer, and now I’m a writer.
I’ve always called myself a writer, even though most people use the word “author.” I guess it’s because I feel like writers like me just write what’s left to be written. I’m just a messenger for a lot of stories God wants me to tell. Some are mine, and some are probably yours. So calling myself an author still feels like a huge deal. I’m still getting used to it.
I don’t know what the future holds, but one thing I know for sure is that I’ll get to where I’m meant to be. I’m not doubting it, it’s just a matter of when. To get there, I know I’ll have to give up a lot of things. But giving up things you love doesn’t mean you can never go back to them. My husband always reminds me that I can still be that person if I want to, it’s just that some things can wait. And it’s not a bad thing to pursue something you truly believe in. Trust me, it’s easier said than done, but seeing the smile on people’s faces and giving others a glimpse of hope—without giving up—can be transformative.
A kind of kinetic energy that can’t be created or destroyed.
I guess I see myself as a game character. I’ve passed level one, two, or three, and now I’m heading into level four. New challenges are up ahead, but I’m not backing down. Kweezyfiction is a new level of storytelling I wanted to challenge myself with. I’ve never really seen an author put their story out there (for free), but I’m already over the moon just knowing I did it—that I finished a book and launched it with my bare hands. To be honest, earning from this is a huge bonus I’d gladly take—maybe as a sign that I did a great job—but money isn’t everything. The truth is, the greatest prize is you. Whoever you are reading this—you’re a gift from God to me. The fact that you even care about someone like me? I never thought this could truly happen, and I’m so grateful God allowed this in my life.
Now that I’m writing, I finally understand the parts of my life that didn’t make sense before. Writing made me reflect and see the world in a different light. And to be honest, I’ve started to understand God a little better. It’s not easy seeing your characters live out their own free will—because even I, as the writer, can’t fully control them. And yet, He gave all of us that freedom: to think, to love, and to create something entirely our own. Because I get to do what I do, I realize just how deeply God loves me. If you had met me five years ago, I was close to giving up—not just on art, but on life itself.
So this letter is really for Him—for the One who made everything possible for me. Now I know that my tears didn’t fall for nothing. And all my hard work will pay off in the end.
I hope you, dear reader, find that same truth in your life too.
So inspiring. Glory to God!